{ remember

i ran across this quote today while browsing the internet.

People will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but they will always remember how you made them feel. ~Maya Angelou

as i look back on things that ihave experienced in my 25 years....i must say that this is so very true. ican look back at times in my life where i don't really remember the details of a situation, but i can remember the way that i felt because of those situations. whether it be good or bad....i still remember. it makes me wonder how many people look back on their relationship with me and have negative feelings. how many have fond positive memories? i hope that there are far more that have fond memories.

i have a problem with holding grudges. it is very childish, and i hate that i have this problem; but i do. It is something that i am working on. i know taht this causes people to have negative memories of me, and i don't want that. some of the grudges that i hold are over petty things...some are more serious. but it is time. time to let them go. time to forgive and to ask for forgivness.

i want to start a new road in my life....a happy road. i want people around me that are happy. i want to make those that are around me happy. i want to release the negativity....i want it to go away. i just want happiness.

xoxo...ns}

{ believe...

i believe in working hard for things that you want in life.

i believe in the truth.

i believe that your word is the most valuable thing you have to give to another person.

i believe that good things happen to good people.

i believe that God will not put upon us things which we can not handle.

i believe 'that which does not kill us...only makes us stronger'.

i believe that everything happens for a reason.

i believe in love.

i believe that change is good.

i believe that a promise should be kept.

i believe that no one person can have too much love or affection.

now all i need is to be able to trust in my beliefs. it is time for me to trust in things much larger than me. but it is hard...it is hard to trust when i have been burnt time and time again. nonetheless, shouldn't it be easy to put my trust in God. shouldn't i be able to see that God's plan for my life is much better than my plan. i should. but why can't i? i do not know.

i need to believe that i can trust.

xoxo...ns}

{ dreams....

do not lose hold of your dreams or aspirations. for if you do, you may still exist but you have ceased to live. -- Henry David Thoreau


sadly i must say that at times in my life i have given up on dreams and aspirations. well maybe not given up....more so put them on the back burner for; or because of others in my life. recent changes have made me very bitter of this fact. why would i give someone the power to make me put my dreams and aspirations on hold. someone who deserves to be in my life wouldn't allow that to happen. they would want for me to have and be what i have always dreamed of being. regardless of the sacrifices.

i have always given more of myself than what i have demanded of others. I am always the person to be burned in relationships. i wonder why this is? why would i think that it is okay to give up on dreams....why change my life to accommodate others? is it wrong to be so giving of my self....or just stupid?

either way i am done. done allowing others to dictate who and what i will be in life.

done.

it seems as if changes in life give you a chance to look back and see things in your past with much clarity. i am thankful for that. very thankful. i am on a road to much change. stick around, cause if you don't......you won't recognize me after my journey of change.

ns }